It ends here....

Dear readers and friends,

It has come to a point in life where another chapter of my life ends here. So much has happen within a short time. What I have been through within these few months no one really understands or knows about it, unless my closest friends.

I have given up and let go of my past and I am going to end this chapter of my life here and as on this date. These three months has been nothing but a disaster to my life and I do not know how to explain or tell the story about what has gone so wrong. Part of me still ask myself ... where have I gone wrong and what have I done wrong to deserve all the misunderstandings and selfishness that I have received from a few people. I have grew tired of trying to let them see a bigger picture in life. I tried my best....

So here I am, tired and beaten, I raise the white flag to show defeat and I surrender. I had enough of pain that has been inflicted onto my frail heart.

I had also learnt that I have to stand up alone and can't rely much on my friends. Some which I thought I can looked up too seemed to have forgotten about me and continued on with their lives and made me feel as if I never existed. Some which I seek answers, never could give me an answer instead ask me to leave it be.

"Its enough...enough is enough" my heart whispers to me...as it can't take in anymore sadness and disappointments in life.

My chapter of life ends here... and so does this blog.... it also ends here... Thank you and goodbye....


p/s: If only you all could have looked and see things from another perspective...life could be different . If only you gave it a chance, gave it a chance to explain, gave it a chance to see if it worked out or not. But...sadly... you all never wanted too.

The Revision Weeks, Part 1

The final examination has just passed and looking back at the weeks where I was doing my revision with my study mates was kinda fun. I guess all of us were pretty tired then. We barely had enough rest.

For me I was gulping down coffee like there was no tomorrow just to stay awake and keep me going on with my books. The whole week of revision was filled with seriousness and also... well a tad of silliness and also a lot of timeout. But of course most of the time was spend with the books.

Day time we will be at the State Library doing revision and when night falls we went back to the Uni to continue our revision until late mid-night. There are times when one will feel bored and start a little bit of camwhoring. LOLX

Usually the study group consist of six of us....small chick (Chee), Miss Polar bear (Vivi), Pig(David), Mouse (Ming), Caloon and I. We may be taking different subject but studying together is fun. If there are somethings that we do not understand we can solve it either together or someone will teach us.

Brithday Wishes

Muahahaha its Piggy's birthday again! How time passes by so fast now pig pig is 26y/o- 2years... lolx.

So pig... you should be wiser now o. Hahaha....

aih... still look like a kid....

Vivi decided to celebrate pig's birthday earlier so we celebrate it a day earlier. Went to living room and had some drinks and bought a cake for pig.

His cake

Make a wish...make a wish.

Time for some fun! Muahahaha

I did this *proud of it*

Anyway happy birthday pig and may all your birthday wishes come through.... including your SW wish... wakakaka... smooth sailing ahead of you. Cheers!

Family photo... our small Chick (Xiao Chee) is missing .... she had something to do...

The Accident

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Short Talk:
So much has happen in such a short time.
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So much has happened in my life. So much that it is hard to explain.

3rd of June 2008 marks a new chapter in my life. In my 4 years of driving experience never had I met with such things. I was involved in a 3 car pile up. The worst part was that I was the last car.

It was raining that day, the road was slippery. I was on my way to pick a friend up for lunch. I wanted that friend to help me out with some stuff which I don't know how to do. I wanted to bless a dear friend who meant a lot to me. Never had I thought before I can perform that task in the temple, I had my car crashed into another car's back. The accident was pretty serious in a way. The car in front of me rammed into another car in front of him first before I came in from the back.

the bonnet was bent car plate chipped off

headlamps broken

I really don't blame anyone for this now, its just fate. Even though at that time and a few days at that time I blame the guy one car in front of me who made an emergency brake for no reason and caused this accident. All that is in the past.

The front seat passenger side door could not be open.

After the accident, my relationship with my mother has gone sour, I got used to it. To her, I am just a bad son and a useless one. She says she has given up on me. Can't blame her much. No matter what I have done its never good enough for her. She likes to compare me with all the cousin's saying how I should be like them.... but that is another story.

Because of the accident I also had a traffic police fine of RM300 for no reason at all. Stated that I drove recklessly on the road. The police was just a piece of useless crap who talks crap all the tome when I was writing my report. The police could not even type or use the computer properly. How sad can Malaysian police be?

With the fine and repair works I had to pay RM875 in total....

The old scare...from last year

After the accident, it has open my eyes to a lot of things. I realized how one's life could be very fragile and you will never know what will happen next in a split of a second. I could have died in that accident... or I could have killed someone in that accident.

How I wish... I died in that accident... how I wish earlier on this year while I was crossing the road, the truck that nearly hit me...would just actually hit me and let me leave this world......

Everything is going up....

As we read the news today, crude oil prices are rising. This has cause some chaos throughout the world.

Malaysia is no different. Recently, our beloved prime minister Datuk Abdullah Badawi has announce in a 0.78 hike in petrol prices bringing the price from RM1.92 to RM2.78 per liter. Diesel prices rised frin RM1.58 to RM 2.58 per liter (RM1.00 rise). This petrol price hike will definitely have severe impact on the people. Especially the one down here in East Malaysia and also parts of West Malaysia where there are a lot of low income earners and middle income earners. It makes me wonder how are they going to survive?

Everything is on the rise. Even prices of raw rice has gone up. Prices of rice now range from RM30 ++ to RM60++ for those which are good in quality. Electricity tariff will rise next month, how much is yet to be known.

I seriously wonder, how are we going to survive? Expenses are on the rise but not our income. It seems that life ahead is going to be tougher.

Bizarre Pets

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Short Talk:
Final Examinations are coming up soon... sighs... time flies....
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Pets are wonderful things. Why, I love keeping pets...but sometimes, some pets acts in a weird or bizarre way. Some pets even has a temper.

For years now I have been keeping a few types of pets, these are, turtle, fishes (various species), Budgerigars (small parrot), hamsters, dogs and the weirdest of all lizard! But now I am only keeping two hamsters and one adorable dog.

My dog, tao tao (named by my sister) is really one naughty tyke! Not only that a scheming and smart one too. One of his favourite thing to do is to loiter around the neighborhood. Once he journeyed too far from home and was nearly kidnap by two kids, I would have thought he had learnt his lesson but nooo.... he never learns. Sighs... but no matter what, I still love him heaps because he is just so lovable and innocent at times.

this is how tao tao looks before his "make-over"


VOILA! after his 'make-over"...lolx!!

Recently, the hot season has arrived again. So it is this time of the year tao tao gets his yearly fur cut at the pet shop. Boy...does he hate it! We would ask the pet shop assistant to cut his fur really really short and that is what he hates the most. So, every time after the fur cut he will come home and sulk and ignore us... sighs... this dog has got some issue.

Not to worry, after a few days its back to his old naughty self again!

The other weird pet I own is this hamster named bit bit. Bit bit has grown into a ferocious, finger biting monster! I am serious, when I just got him he was ok... but soon after that he changed into this hungry finger biting hamster.

When bit bit was not in a biting mood....



When bit bit becomes a ferocious, finger biting hamster... lolx!

Everytime if I put my finger in his cage he will bite it! I really don't know what has gotten into that hamster's head. Sheesh! It could be that he is one hungry hamster and my finger became his humongous delicious nut! At the end of the day... I still love him... sighs... the things I do for my pets... haha..
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DISCLOSURE: NO animal or human finger was hurt or killed during the photo shoot.
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OMG! Crazy!!

I was browsing through youtube for some music videos, as I was watching Britney Spears's Piece of Me video. Something caught my attention... something unusual. So I clicked on the link and it directed to this .... well should I say "unique" guy, who changed and sang the song Piece of me in a very... weird but funny way. Part of the video made me wanna puke but at the end I can't stop laughing. I seriously like the original piece of me song.... but this guy kinda butchered it but made it funny.

So here goes the video plus the lyrics by yours truly Patrickblog...

Lyrics:
Im the boy with a dream before i was a teen
dont matter if i try or believe
they get jealous too see me succeed
they take one look and think that they can read me like a magazine
you think you know me, you want a piece of me

im the boy with no father
you think my life would be harder
but its a life i love living thats why
i keep getting stronger
and when im on youtube
i be myself i got nothing to prove.
you wanna see the real me

Im the boy who dances like a fool (you want a piece of me)
im the boy who thinks britney is cool (you want a piece of me)
im the boy gets called fag everyday (you want a piece of me)
im the boy my life live it my way (you want a piece of me)

im the boy with the haters who are tryin and fuckn me off
need to look in the mirror and see the real jerk off
thinkin that they all know the real me
but they dont know my story
now are you sure you wanna hate on me?

im the boy who acts and talks a different way but see thats not ok
haters pick on the different, yeah for real
take a look and see?
no wonder theres so many teen suicides
i mean please do you wanna feel guilty?

Im the boy who dances like a fool (you want a piece of me)
im the boy who thinks britney is cool (you want a piece of me)
im the boy gets called fag everyday (you want a piece of me)
im the boy my life live it my way (you want a piece of me)

Now, the original MV of Piece of Me by the melodramatic Miss Spears click here